Our Unending Poem

It was years ago when we first met.
There was something about you that I'd never forget.
You were there with David and I was with Beth,
You made my heart be so fast I had to remember to take a breath.
It wasn't at school or a party like you typical scene,
My love for you began at a church group called Lifeteen.
It was back when we were younger and I didn't have a cell phone
We said our goodbyes and went off on our own.
A part of me always remembered how you made me feel,
Though at my age I didn't really know what was real.
We found each other on myspace my senior year.
It was like something brought you back to me and my feelings were clear.
I was going to school and you were going to work.
Sometimes you would go see your mom, and seeing me was just a perk.
Then all of a sudden we didn't talk and were no longer friends.
Apparently I had been pushed to the side while you and your ex were making amends,
I moved on and picked up the pieces of my heart
My thoughts of you vanished as quickly as they had start.
Another year passed with no word from you
Then you came into work out of the blue.
Turned out my coworker, Matt, was your roommate.
You can call it magic or destiny but I call it fate.
We were talking again and friends on face book.
A few conversations was all it took.
You invited me over to hang out with some friends at your place.
I said yes just so once again I could see your face.
You called me when I was on my way over and said not yet.
You were going to see your ex, it was really over this time, no need to fret.
I remember thinking that this was stupid and all guys are dicks.
I couldn't believe I had fallen for another one of your tricks.
After the phone cancellation,
Fate stepped in again and I saw you at the gas station.
My heart began to race,
Especially after I saw the look of shock on your face.
The way it went couldn't of been greater.
You said sorry, it wont take long, gave me a hug, and said I'll call you later.
A part of me was still surprised when you called me.
You were on your way home, told me to come over and my heart filled with glee.
So that night we went out to Td's and had a few drinks
For me and you our first night together was crazier than most people think.
From that night til I moved back up for school,
I lived with you, had some of the greatest moments, and life was oh so cool.
The distance between us made things difficult and hard to handle.
Of course it didn't only have to do with us, we had our own scandal.
On November 29th, you broke up with me and let your ex back in your life.
You hurt me so bad and so deep it cut me like a knife.
I picked up my life once again and dropping off Christmas presents ay your house who do I see,
My heart stopped beating, my foot hit the brake, there you were putting up lights, hanging out of a tree.
Since things were quite hostile,
We ignored each other for a little while.
Tyler convinced you to listen to me and you agreed.
I didn't have much to say, only a letter for you to read.
I guess my letter got through and back to me you came.
We had many issues to work out, but we were back together just the same.
Within two weeks you moved up with me to Tallahassee.
It gave me hope and made me start thinking of things that could be.
I'm our first month living together, we went to look at the pound.
A Siberian husky named Peter was what we found.
We had our own little family and life was going so well.
Something ended up happening that was hard to tell.
You left for work one day at dawn,
When I got home with no explanation you were gone.
Without you, I turned into a ticking time bomb,
But a couple days later I found out I was to be a mom.
I decided I would face it all alone.
It might not have been that way if only you had known.
A week and a half later you messaged me on face book.
You drove back up here and it only took one look.
This time you said you were here to stay
You had me so vulnerable all I could do was pray.
About a month later, God's plan for me changed.
I wasn't to be a mother anymore and it felt strange.
I had just gotten use to the idea of a baby.
Was I still relived with a hint of sadness?, well yah maybe.
A couple months later we wanted our family to grow
Brody and Sparky, two new puppies, is what we have to show.
Our little family is now complete.
Coming home to everyone everyday is surely a treat.
We lost our Sparky that killed us inside.
Our hearts were crushed it was hard to hide.
We started fighting about stupid things,
and like before, pain is all that ever brings.
I decided I wanted to go see my family back home.
Then you sent me a text and I was alone.
You wanted to go our separate way,
and i knew there was nothing I could say.
You moved out and ignored me,
how immature could you be.
A year and a half and you cant say a word,
silence was all I heard.
So our unending poem is through,
and there is nothing anyone can do.
Well our end was just a new beginning,
and you better believe my head is spinning.
I have no idea where things are gonna go.
This time around we're gonna take things slow.
We both need each other and our own space,
but who we are to each other can't be replaced.
During our separations, we went looking for someone new,
but walking away from each other was something we couldnt do.
Now we are together and very happy.
Our babies and I think your a great daddy.
Such a close family is what we have become,
Not without struggle for sure, for there is so much we have overcome.
Our relationship has taking many detours,
but we have a future, of this i'm sure.
Well I lied again,
Only took another year together and there was our end.
I tried so hard to hold us together,
but your feelings for me faded as quick as the weather.
I still love you with all my heart and soul,
but the pain I feel is really taking it's toll.
Well back together again as the story goes,
we were doing okay but we some lows.
We moved back home to where we were from,
I thought it would be good for us, I guess I was dumb.
You found a new group of single friends,
your priorities changed and your personality bends.
We became friends with this girl,
I never imagined you'd give her a whirl.
We split again,
this time I was sure it was the end.
She said she was pregnant and you were the daddy,
I tried but I couldn't be anywhere near happy.
I guess the dates didn't match up and you walked away,
you begged me to give you a chance and said you'd stay.
After much to work though we were together and happy.
In September you purposed and it was no where near sappy.
Our relationship completely had made its amends,
so we planned the wedding with our family and friends.
In November we got married in a church,
our life was complete and so was our search.
A year later, God has blessed us
I'm pregnant again and it's only a plus.

Final Score

What am I going to do?
I sit here thinking of you.
This situation is new for me,
I only wish the answer was easy to see.
My heart is being pulled three different ways
Hopefully this is just another phase.
You all seem to show me you care
Dealing with all of this is getting harder to bare.
With two of you always so far away
And the other one isn’t sure if he is gonna stay
How is this an easy decision for me to make
When it’s my heart that’s at stake.
How can you ever measure who cares more
It’s not like you end up with a final score.

Daddy's Little Girl

My daddy's little girl I used to be
He would sit and bounce me on his knee
He made me feel safe and secure at night,
he taught me what was wrong and right
Now that I am grown and graduated high school,
as trails come my way
I know my daddy will still lovingly say,
Daughter, here is my shoulder
let me carry that heavy boulder
I thank my heavenly father above for
filling my daddy's heart with his love,
so that when the storms of life start to whirl
I can still feel like
I'm my daddy's little girl.

Flat On The Floor

My days are starting to feel like years,
Rivers could be made from all of my tears.
I want so much out of my life,
It seems all I do is cause some sort of strife.
All I do is hurt the people I care about.
I can’t seem to figure out the right route.
I wish I was a better person,
Though I just seem to worsen.
I wish you were here tonight,
I know we could really make everything alright.
I’m ready to give up and give in,
My happiness is as fake as my grin.
I don’t know what I’m holding on for,
Everyday I just end up flat on the floor.

Running Out of Rhymes

It’s taken me way too long to see,
You really are the only one for me.
I have screwed up so many times,
I’ve written this before and I’m gonna run out of rhymes.
You keep saying, “I finally know how you really feel.”
But even now you know my love for you is real.
You walk away and say your done,
But I think this is just an excuse for you to run.
You really don’t want to walk away,
You just forced yourself to believe it wont change and you’ll get hurt if you stay.
I know I’m not the safest bet,
But don’t completely give up on us just yet.

Forget

Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember he has someone new
Forget him when they played your song
Remember when you cried all night long
Forget how close you once were
Remember he has chosen her
Forget how you memorized is walk
Forget the way he use to talk
Forget the things he use to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight
Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved, its past
Forget he said he'd leave you never
Remember now he's gone forever

Let Me Go

I use to think we had it all
But I didn’t know I was the only one to fall
I gave you everything I had,
And now I’m alone and sad
You say I need to leave the past behind
But I really need some peace of mind
You said that you’re the only one that understands
How can that be when it is you she commands
You seems to bend to her every will
What will be the next thing with her you need to fulfill
Everything that happened nearly killed me last time
How many more times must I tell the same rhyme
I could give you anything, do anything you wanted me to
But if it happened again…what would you expect me to do
You said you loved me before
But that didn’t stop you from leaving me and walking to her door
I was starting to believe just maybe we were past all this
But I guess it’s her your starting to miss
I’ve done nothing but try and give you everything you need
Now I’m sitting her trying to plead
If I am not enough to keep her out of your life
And lately cause you nothing but strife
Then make your choice
I only have one voice
If she is what you really want and I’m and not enough you need to let me know
And if that’s the case, whether it kills me or not you need to let me go.
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